It’s been a busy couple weeks as I’ve adjusted to my new job and work schedule, managed two busy schedules with just one car while we waited for mine to be fixed, went through most of my remission tests, bought a lot of furniture, and watched a lot of HGTV. I’ve neglected HTC on so many levels because “I’ve been busy” but the truth is, I’ve been in a bit of a rut. And yes, I’ve had a lot going on in my life, but I’ve also had a lot of down time that I’ve filled with HGTV, so I really can’t use my business as an excuse.
I’ve been thinking a lot about Hey There, Chelsie because I’ve been away from it more than I had planned, basically for the last 6 months. I know I keep saying that I want to be more consistent (and I do) and I keep saying that I have a lot of projects in the works (and I do) but I just haven’t been able to recommit to it like I’ve wanted to. Every morning I wake up so mad that I didn’t get my post done the night before and every night I come up with some reason to not work on it. It’s not that I’ve lost my passion for my blog, but I’ve been so sucked into the comparison game and watching everyone else grow while feeling a bit of a loss on my own.
I’ve found some clarity, recently:
I was listening to a podcast the other day with Danielle Laporte (HIGHLY recommend listening if you are looking for some inspiration) and something she said really struck me to my core and resonated with me.
“Stop trying to be an expert at the crap you are not expert at just so you can make money. You might not actually be a teacher yet, but you want to be of service and make a living through that. So, talk to us about your journey. And talk to us about what you’re finding out. And tell us what you want to learn. Take us on the path with you and that can be of incredible service. Show us your hunt and your discovery and the questions you’re living right now. And let us know that it’s not all perfect. Be a seeker. Take us with you on the seeking. Live your life. Learn what works. Suffer. Win. Succeed. Then we are all in it together.”
This is where my roadblock has been recently. I’ve been stuck thinking that every thing I share and everything I write has to be from the point of an expert in order to make HTC successful. And even though I have always believed that Lifestyle Blogs Matter, I’ve convinced myself that I need to niche down at something I’m an expert at in order to get HTC to be successful. And I’ll admit it – there are times where I’m more focused on making money than sharing what’s really on my heart and mind.
But that’s not why I started blogging. I started blogging because I was on a journey of self-discovery and healing and in pursuit of a vibrant second-chance life.