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There’s been a little more laughter in our home There’s been a little more laughter in our home lately. Snuggles and kisses and staying up way too late watching Netflix. It’s like the worst is behind us and we’re on the other side of what we’ve been dreading and the darkness that has covered us for so long is starting to lift. It doesn’t mean we’re 100% okay, but we can feel the light and the hope for the future and we’re choosing to face it hand-in-hand, together. 
And every night, you whisper to me: “This isn’t your fault. You’re my best friend. I love you more today than ever before. We’re going to live a beautiful life together.” And every night, we grow a little bit closer and our hearts mend a little more, and I know deep in my bones, that we’re going to be okay.
I love you, Dustin.
#ttccommunity #ttcjourney #hysterectomy #childfreenotbychoice #childfreeafterinfertility #infertilityawareness #infertilitysucks #healingafterinfertility
Never in a million years did I think I would be bu Never in a million years did I think I would be buying and wearing postpartum undies without having a baby in my arms. But here we are, on #pregnancyandinfantlossawareness day today, and here I am: with a very swollen and tender belly, supported by a belly binder, not because I just had a baby, but because I’m post-hysterectomy.
Four years ago, we lost our first pregnancy and year after year, we went through infertility treatments, more pregnancy loss, surgeries, and now a total hysterectomy. And even though my doctor confirmed today after receiving my pathology results that we made the right decision, it doesn’t do much to lessen the grief.
And I guess I just want anyone out there who finds themselves carrying that same grief today to know that they are not alone. I know how hard it is to have your babies in heaven and not in your arms. I know what it’s like to have your dreams and future plans ripped out from underneath you and have no idea how to move forward. I know.
And even though today feels so sad and hard and unfair, I also know that there are pockets of peace and moments of joy to be found in the coming days and weeks and years. 
So here I am, in a belly binder and postpartum undies after a complete hysterectomy, missing my babies and holding on to hope for healing and better days.
#infertility #infertilityawareness #infertilityawareness #miscarriage #miscarriageawareness #hysterectomy #hysterectomyrecovery #ttccommunity #ttcjourney #ttcaftermiscarriage #infertilitywarrior
We made it. It’s surreal to be back at home, kno We made it.
It’s surreal to be back at home, knowing that the surgery we’ve been waiting for, dreading, but also looking forward to, is now behind us. We have officially closed the door to having bio kids and it’s hard to wrap my mind around it. But it’s done.
I had a lot of doubt and second guessing leading up to yesterday - wondering if I was giving up too fast or taking the “easy way out.” It was such a relief to hear my doctor say that my uterus was abnormally large and filled with vascular masses and that we made the right choice to remove it. I wasn’t making it up. I wasn’t exaggerating. It had to go if I was going to have any quality of life.
And to be honest, I would really love a better quality of life. My uterus took my fertility but it sure as heck wasn’t going to take my quality of life. 
And so here we are, on the other side of the surgery and getting ready to focus on healing, both physically and emotionally. It’s not easy, but it’s doable. I am hopeful for better days.
Thank you for the countless texts, messages, flowers, and cookie deliveries. Your love and prayers have made the difference for us during this time and I cannot thank you enough.
Let the healing begin.
#infertility #infertilityawareness #hysterectomy #hysterectomyrecovery #ttcjourney #infertilitysucks #infertilitywarrior #infertilitysupport #hysterectomyawareness #misscarriage #uofuhealth
Between the sun and the sea and in this peaceful p Between the sun and the sea and in this peaceful piece of paradise, we have started to turn our wounds into wisdom. We have started to dream again. We have started to make plans to rebuild. We have started to heal.
Even here, we are growing. Together.
I love you, Dustin. We’re going to be okay.
#cabosanlucasmexico #villadelmar #cabomexico #infertilityawareness #childlessnotbychoice #childfreeafterinfertility #childfreenotbychoice #ttccommunity #ttcjourney #healingafterinfertility
After a year of cancer scares, two CT scans, one M After a year of cancer scares, two CT scans, one MRI, countless blood draws, and devastating news regarding our journey to have kids, it’s feels damn good to have good news to share today.
I am 15 years cancer free. I have officially lived half my life as a cancer survivor. That’s a win I will happily take and happily celebrate.
WBC has come back within normal ranges. I’m still severely anemic (to be expected right now with everything going on) so I’ll be going back for an Iron IV Transfusion on Friday to try to help my body catch back up after a hard few months of periods. Lymph nodes feel normal. Lungs sound good. Leg looks solid.
For 15 years, this body has fought to keep my cancer away. And despite all that we’re going though now, all’s I feel is an immense sense of love and gratitude for it. She has worked hard to keep me alive and as healthy as possible. 
We’re on the same team, my body and I. And now it’s my turn to fight for her and get this toxic organ out and get healthy again. 
On to the next year. 
#cancersurvivor #pediatriccancer #childhoodcancer #osteosarcoma #utahcancerspecialists #cancerfree #cancerremission #childhoodcancerawareness #childhoodcancersurvivor #cancerfighter
Today, we met with the kindest, most knowledgeable Today, we met with the kindest, most knowledgeable doctor to discuss my MRI scans and my upcoming surgery. He spent over 50 minutes showing us my scans, answering our questions, and making sure we had all the information and options to make the best decision for us.
Leading up to this appointment, I was nervous and so so sad. Going to see this doctor made the news of my MRI real and scheduling a hysterectomy creates a finality to our journey to get pregnant ourselves. I kept wondering if I was jumping the gun too soon - and that maybe I was giving up too easily on getting pregnant.
But then we saw the images from my MRI today - and saw just how large the adenomyoma is. We heard a second doctor tell us that it was in operable. We talked about how I have been bed ridden almost every day for a month due to severe pain and how this has completely wrecked my health and my quality of life. We validated my experiences and discussed my wish for a life that doesn’t revolve around my uterus.
And so we have decided to move forward with a hysterectomy so that I can focus on getting healthy again. So I can live my life again. And even though this was an impossibly hard decision to make and even though this isn’t where we thought our infertility journey would lead us - I feel a sense of peace that this is the right step towards healing the wounds the last four years of infertility has left us with.
There is still so much to grieve. Still so much process. But I still have so much to live for - and my uterus may have stolen my fertility but I will not let it steal my life.
#infertility #infertilityawareness #infertilitysucks #adenomyosis #hysterectomy #miscarriage #ttccommunity #ttcjourney #ttcsisters #ttcsupport
Last night, @halecentretheatre treated me and my b Last night, @halecentretheatre treated me and my brother and sister to a showing of Guys and Dolls. Not only was the show fantastic and the cast extremely talented, but I had the best time with my siblings and loved being able to escape the stress and heaviness that I’ve been feeling over the last few weeks.
I do not take my relationships with my three younger siblings for granted. I’m so extremely lucky to be so close to them and grateful to have them to lean on. We laughed until we cried, we sang along, and we recounted the memories of our middle school doing this play years ago.
Moments of joy. I’m clinging to them and they carry me through.
10/10 recommend checking out Guys and Dolls if you need an escape from life for a few hours. It’s seriously so well done.
#gifted #heytherechelsie #myvibrantlife #halecentretheatre #guysanddolls #utahtheatre #momentsofjoy #thingstodoinutah #utahunique
Sometimes you gotta bleed to know That you’re a Sometimes you gotta bleed to know 
That you’re alive and have a soul ❤️‍🩹 
#heytherechelsie #ttccommunity #ttcjourney #ttcaftermiscarriage #infertilityawareness #infertilitywarrior #twentyonepilotslyrics #miscarriageawareness #infertilityjourney

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Reading Circle: October

During my student teaching experience, I found that the one thing I really wanted to get my students to do was to want to read on their own for enjoyment. That was a hefty goal, I soon realized. I figured the only way I could even expose them to the wonders of books was to incorporate as many excerpts and as many samples from as many books as I could during my lessons. I read to them The Fault in Our Stars, The 5th Wave, Pride and Prejudice, Love that Dog, Divergent, Les Miserables and so on. Before I knew it, I had students in line to borrow different books from my little personal library. I had students coming in after powering through a book in two nights and wanting to tell me what they liked about it or didn’t like about it and then asking me for more recommendations. Since then, I have been trying my hardest to read a lot so that I can keep up with my students and be able to always have a recommendation up my sleeve. I read a lot of YA lit for that reason, and let me tell you, there is some really good YA literature out there these days. I do try to brush up on my classics, too!

Anyway, here is what I read during October:
Speak by Laurie Halse Anderson-★★★★-Melinda starts her Freshman year of high school with no friends, no relationship with her parents and with a secret. The story follows her school year as she struggles with her reputation, her relationships and as her secret slowly suffocates her ability to speak.


I really liked this book a lot better then Anderson’s other novel-Wintergirls. I felt like the story line was easier to follow because there wasn’t a ton of description to get lost in. I think this is a very applicable plot that many teenage girls could relate to in one way or another and that Anderson tackles a tough subject with class and honesty. I liked the literal application of speaking as Melinda’s coping mechanism.

Shine by Lauren Myracle-★★★★-This is more like a 4.5 kind of rating. This story follows sixteen-year-old Cat, who takes it upon herself to discover the truth behind the hate-crime that put her best guy friend in the hospital. While attempting to solve the mystery, Cat also confronts her own demons and discovers her own strength in the face of many trials.

I loved this book. I would never teach it and would probably never recommend it to my students because of the language and themes but this book was beautiful. It tackles such relevant issues kids face today (hate-crimes, drug use, rape) in a graceful way-and I loved how the two main conflicts didn’t conflict with each other, but built each other up. The characters are real and honest.

Don’t read this book if you don’t enjoy swearing, though. It’s pretty excessive and I didn’t enjoy that aspect of the book at all.


Graceling by Kristin Cashore-★★★-This is a 3.5 star rating.
This story takes place in a fantasy realm where people who are born with two colored eyes are born with “graces” which means a special talent or ability. The story follows Katsa, who was born with a Killing Grace and is used by her uncle, a king, to bully and enforce his rules and wants. Katsa meets Po, a Graceling from a neighboring country who is looking for his kidnapped grandfather. Together, they embark on a journey of self-discovery, acceptance and discover a terrible secret about their world.

I keep going back and forth over how I feel about this book. I knew that there were two other books that went along with this book and without really thinking about it, thought that this book was the first in a trilogy. This was where I went wrong-this book is a stand alone story with two companion novels-not sequels! So, this book takes you on a complete journey and that was something I didn’t realize at first, so I was really surprised at how long the story was! I’m just not used to that! I would get frustrated and confused that the author kept pushing the story along and wondered when it would end in a cliff hanger, not realizing that she was going to end the story all the way. If I was to sit down and read this again with that understanding, I think I would enjoy the story more.

The action is fast paced and there are some good twists in the plot line. I think the character development was realistic and believable. I liked the romance, too. I think this story was really balanced out and would recommend it to anyone who enjoys fantasy and action.


For more reviews and recommendations, be sure to check out my goodreads profile!


2 Comments · Written On:October 29, 2014

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There’s been a little more laughter in our home There’s been a little more laughter in our home lately. Snuggles and kisses and staying up way too late watching Netflix. It’s like the worst is behind us and we’re on the other side of what we’ve been dreading and the darkness that has covered us for so long is starting to lift. It doesn’t mean we’re 100% okay, but we can feel the light and the hope for the future and we’re choosing to face it hand-in-hand, together. 
And every night, you whisper to me: “This isn’t your fault. You’re my best friend. I love you more today than ever before. We’re going to live a beautiful life together.” And every night, we grow a little bit closer and our hearts mend a little more, and I know deep in my bones, that we’re going to be okay.
I love you, Dustin.
#ttccommunity #ttcjourney #hysterectomy #childfreenotbychoice #childfreeafterinfertility #infertilityawareness #infertilitysucks #healingafterinfertility
Never in a million years did I think I would be bu Never in a million years did I think I would be buying and wearing postpartum undies without having a baby in my arms. But here we are, on #pregnancyandinfantlossawareness day today, and here I am: with a very swollen and tender belly, supported by a belly binder, not because I just had a baby, but because I’m post-hysterectomy.
Four years ago, we lost our first pregnancy and year after year, we went through infertility treatments, more pregnancy loss, surgeries, and now a total hysterectomy. And even though my doctor confirmed today after receiving my pathology results that we made the right decision, it doesn’t do much to lessen the grief.
And I guess I just want anyone out there who finds themselves carrying that same grief today to know that they are not alone. I know how hard it is to have your babies in heaven and not in your arms. I know what it’s like to have your dreams and future plans ripped out from underneath you and have no idea how to move forward. I know.
And even though today feels so sad and hard and unfair, I also know that there are pockets of peace and moments of joy to be found in the coming days and weeks and years. 
So here I am, in a belly binder and postpartum undies after a complete hysterectomy, missing my babies and holding on to hope for healing and better days.
#infertility #infertilityawareness #infertilityawareness #miscarriage #miscarriageawareness #hysterectomy #hysterectomyrecovery #ttccommunity #ttcjourney #ttcaftermiscarriage #infertilitywarrior
We made it. It’s surreal to be back at home, kno We made it.
It’s surreal to be back at home, knowing that the surgery we’ve been waiting for, dreading, but also looking forward to, is now behind us. We have officially closed the door to having bio kids and it’s hard to wrap my mind around it. But it’s done.
I had a lot of doubt and second guessing leading up to yesterday - wondering if I was giving up too fast or taking the “easy way out.” It was such a relief to hear my doctor say that my uterus was abnormally large and filled with vascular masses and that we made the right choice to remove it. I wasn’t making it up. I wasn’t exaggerating. It had to go if I was going to have any quality of life.
And to be honest, I would really love a better quality of life. My uterus took my fertility but it sure as heck wasn’t going to take my quality of life. 
And so here we are, on the other side of the surgery and getting ready to focus on healing, both physically and emotionally. It’s not easy, but it’s doable. I am hopeful for better days.
Thank you for the countless texts, messages, flowers, and cookie deliveries. Your love and prayers have made the difference for us during this time and I cannot thank you enough.
Let the healing begin.
#infertility #infertilityawareness #hysterectomy #hysterectomyrecovery #ttcjourney #infertilitysucks #infertilitywarrior #infertilitysupport #hysterectomyawareness #misscarriage #uofuhealth
Between the sun and the sea and in this peaceful p Between the sun and the sea and in this peaceful piece of paradise, we have started to turn our wounds into wisdom. We have started to dream again. We have started to make plans to rebuild. We have started to heal.
Even here, we are growing. Together.
I love you, Dustin. We’re going to be okay.
#cabosanlucasmexico #villadelmar #cabomexico #infertilityawareness #childlessnotbychoice #childfreeafterinfertility #childfreenotbychoice #ttccommunity #ttcjourney #healingafterinfertility
After a year of cancer scares, two CT scans, one M After a year of cancer scares, two CT scans, one MRI, countless blood draws, and devastating news regarding our journey to have kids, it’s feels damn good to have good news to share today.
I am 15 years cancer free. I have officially lived half my life as a cancer survivor. That’s a win I will happily take and happily celebrate.
WBC has come back within normal ranges. I’m still severely anemic (to be expected right now with everything going on) so I’ll be going back for an Iron IV Transfusion on Friday to try to help my body catch back up after a hard few months of periods. Lymph nodes feel normal. Lungs sound good. Leg looks solid.
For 15 years, this body has fought to keep my cancer away. And despite all that we’re going though now, all’s I feel is an immense sense of love and gratitude for it. She has worked hard to keep me alive and as healthy as possible. 
We’re on the same team, my body and I. And now it’s my turn to fight for her and get this toxic organ out and get healthy again. 
On to the next year. 
#cancersurvivor #pediatriccancer #childhoodcancer #osteosarcoma #utahcancerspecialists #cancerfree #cancerremission #childhoodcancerawareness #childhoodcancersurvivor #cancerfighter
Today, we met with the kindest, most knowledgeable Today, we met with the kindest, most knowledgeable doctor to discuss my MRI scans and my upcoming surgery. He spent over 50 minutes showing us my scans, answering our questions, and making sure we had all the information and options to make the best decision for us.
Leading up to this appointment, I was nervous and so so sad. Going to see this doctor made the news of my MRI real and scheduling a hysterectomy creates a finality to our journey to get pregnant ourselves. I kept wondering if I was jumping the gun too soon - and that maybe I was giving up too easily on getting pregnant.
But then we saw the images from my MRI today - and saw just how large the adenomyoma is. We heard a second doctor tell us that it was in operable. We talked about how I have been bed ridden almost every day for a month due to severe pain and how this has completely wrecked my health and my quality of life. We validated my experiences and discussed my wish for a life that doesn’t revolve around my uterus.
And so we have decided to move forward with a hysterectomy so that I can focus on getting healthy again. So I can live my life again. And even though this was an impossibly hard decision to make and even though this isn’t where we thought our infertility journey would lead us - I feel a sense of peace that this is the right step towards healing the wounds the last four years of infertility has left us with.
There is still so much to grieve. Still so much process. But I still have so much to live for - and my uterus may have stolen my fertility but I will not let it steal my life.
#infertility #infertilityawareness #infertilitysucks #adenomyosis #hysterectomy #miscarriage #ttccommunity #ttcjourney #ttcsisters #ttcsupport
Last night, @halecentretheatre treated me and my b Last night, @halecentretheatre treated me and my brother and sister to a showing of Guys and Dolls. Not only was the show fantastic and the cast extremely talented, but I had the best time with my siblings and loved being able to escape the stress and heaviness that I’ve been feeling over the last few weeks.
I do not take my relationships with my three younger siblings for granted. I’m so extremely lucky to be so close to them and grateful to have them to lean on. We laughed until we cried, we sang along, and we recounted the memories of our middle school doing this play years ago.
Moments of joy. I’m clinging to them and they carry me through.
10/10 recommend checking out Guys and Dolls if you need an escape from life for a few hours. It’s seriously so well done.
#gifted #heytherechelsie #myvibrantlife #halecentretheatre #guysanddolls #utahtheatre #momentsofjoy #thingstodoinutah #utahunique
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That you’re alive and have a soul ❤️‍🩹 
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There’s been a little more laughter in our home There’s been a little more laughter in our home lately. Snuggles and kisses and staying up way too late watching Netflix. It’s like the worst is behind us and we’re on the other side of what we’ve been dreading and the darkness that has covered us for so long is starting to lift. It doesn’t mean we’re 100% okay, but we can feel the light and the hope for the future and we’re choosing to face it hand-in-hand, together. 
And every night, you whisper to me: “This isn’t your fault. You’re my best friend. I love you more today than ever before. We’re going to live a beautiful life together.” And every night, we grow a little bit closer and our hearts mend a little more, and I know deep in my bones, that we’re going to be okay.
I love you, Dustin.
#ttccommunity #ttcjourney #hysterectomy #childfreenotbychoice #childfreeafterinfertility #infertilityawareness #infertilitysucks #healingafterinfertility
Never in a million years did I think I would be bu Never in a million years did I think I would be buying and wearing postpartum undies without having a baby in my arms. But here we are, on #pregnancyandinfantlossawareness day today, and here I am: with a very swollen and tender belly, supported by a belly binder, not because I just had a baby, but because I’m post-hysterectomy.
Four years ago, we lost our first pregnancy and year after year, we went through infertility treatments, more pregnancy loss, surgeries, and now a total hysterectomy. And even though my doctor confirmed today after receiving my pathology results that we made the right decision, it doesn’t do much to lessen the grief.
And I guess I just want anyone out there who finds themselves carrying that same grief today to know that they are not alone. I know how hard it is to have your babies in heaven and not in your arms. I know what it’s like to have your dreams and future plans ripped out from underneath you and have no idea how to move forward. I know.
And even though today feels so sad and hard and unfair, I also know that there are pockets of peace and moments of joy to be found in the coming days and weeks and years. 
So here I am, in a belly binder and postpartum undies after a complete hysterectomy, missing my babies and holding on to hope for healing and better days.
#infertility #infertilityawareness #infertilityawareness #miscarriage #miscarriageawareness #hysterectomy #hysterectomyrecovery #ttccommunity #ttcjourney #ttcaftermiscarriage #infertilitywarrior
We made it. It’s surreal to be back at home, kno We made it.
It’s surreal to be back at home, knowing that the surgery we’ve been waiting for, dreading, but also looking forward to, is now behind us. We have officially closed the door to having bio kids and it’s hard to wrap my mind around it. But it’s done.
I had a lot of doubt and second guessing leading up to yesterday - wondering if I was giving up too fast or taking the “easy way out.” It was such a relief to hear my doctor say that my uterus was abnormally large and filled with vascular masses and that we made the right choice to remove it. I wasn’t making it up. I wasn’t exaggerating. It had to go if I was going to have any quality of life.
And to be honest, I would really love a better quality of life. My uterus took my fertility but it sure as heck wasn’t going to take my quality of life. 
And so here we are, on the other side of the surgery and getting ready to focus on healing, both physically and emotionally. It’s not easy, but it’s doable. I am hopeful for better days.
Thank you for the countless texts, messages, flowers, and cookie deliveries. Your love and prayers have made the difference for us during this time and I cannot thank you enough.
Let the healing begin.
#infertility #infertilityawareness #hysterectomy #hysterectomyrecovery #ttcjourney #infertilitysucks #infertilitywarrior #infertilitysupport #hysterectomyawareness #misscarriage #uofuhealth
Between the sun and the sea and in this peaceful p Between the sun and the sea and in this peaceful piece of paradise, we have started to turn our wounds into wisdom. We have started to dream again. We have started to make plans to rebuild. We have started to heal.
Even here, we are growing. Together.
I love you, Dustin. We’re going to be okay.
#cabosanlucasmexico #villadelmar #cabomexico #infertilityawareness #childlessnotbychoice #childfreeafterinfertility #childfreenotbychoice #ttccommunity #ttcjourney #healingafterinfertility
After a year of cancer scares, two CT scans, one M After a year of cancer scares, two CT scans, one MRI, countless blood draws, and devastating news regarding our journey to have kids, it’s feels damn good to have good news to share today.
I am 15 years cancer free. I have officially lived half my life as a cancer survivor. That’s a win I will happily take and happily celebrate.
WBC has come back within normal ranges. I’m still severely anemic (to be expected right now with everything going on) so I’ll be going back for an Iron IV Transfusion on Friday to try to help my body catch back up after a hard few months of periods. Lymph nodes feel normal. Lungs sound good. Leg looks solid.
For 15 years, this body has fought to keep my cancer away. And despite all that we’re going though now, all’s I feel is an immense sense of love and gratitude for it. She has worked hard to keep me alive and as healthy as possible. 
We’re on the same team, my body and I. And now it’s my turn to fight for her and get this toxic organ out and get healthy again. 
On to the next year. 
#cancersurvivor #pediatriccancer #childhoodcancer #osteosarcoma #utahcancerspecialists #cancerfree #cancerremission #childhoodcancerawareness #childhoodcancersurvivor #cancerfighter
Today, we met with the kindest, most knowledgeable Today, we met with the kindest, most knowledgeable doctor to discuss my MRI scans and my upcoming surgery. He spent over 50 minutes showing us my scans, answering our questions, and making sure we had all the information and options to make the best decision for us.
Leading up to this appointment, I was nervous and so so sad. Going to see this doctor made the news of my MRI real and scheduling a hysterectomy creates a finality to our journey to get pregnant ourselves. I kept wondering if I was jumping the gun too soon - and that maybe I was giving up too easily on getting pregnant.
But then we saw the images from my MRI today - and saw just how large the adenomyoma is. We heard a second doctor tell us that it was in operable. We talked about how I have been bed ridden almost every day for a month due to severe pain and how this has completely wrecked my health and my quality of life. We validated my experiences and discussed my wish for a life that doesn’t revolve around my uterus.
And so we have decided to move forward with a hysterectomy so that I can focus on getting healthy again. So I can live my life again. And even though this was an impossibly hard decision to make and even though this isn’t where we thought our infertility journey would lead us - I feel a sense of peace that this is the right step towards healing the wounds the last four years of infertility has left us with.
There is still so much to grieve. Still so much process. But I still have so much to live for - and my uterus may have stolen my fertility but I will not let it steal my life.
#infertility #infertilityawareness #infertilitysucks #adenomyosis #hysterectomy #miscarriage #ttccommunity #ttcjourney #ttcsisters #ttcsupport
Last night, @halecentretheatre treated me and my b Last night, @halecentretheatre treated me and my brother and sister to a showing of Guys and Dolls. Not only was the show fantastic and the cast extremely talented, but I had the best time with my siblings and loved being able to escape the stress and heaviness that I’ve been feeling over the last few weeks.
I do not take my relationships with my three younger siblings for granted. I’m so extremely lucky to be so close to them and grateful to have them to lean on. We laughed until we cried, we sang along, and we recounted the memories of our middle school doing this play years ago.
Moments of joy. I’m clinging to them and they carry me through.
10/10 recommend checking out Guys and Dolls if you need an escape from life for a few hours. It’s seriously so well done.
#gifted #heytherechelsie #myvibrantlife #halecentretheatre #guysanddolls #utahtheatre #momentsofjoy #thingstodoinutah #utahunique
Sometimes you gotta bleed to know That you’re a Sometimes you gotta bleed to know 
That you’re alive and have a soul ❤️‍🩹 
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