A couple weeks ago, I had the opportunity to work on one of the most exciting projects I’ve been a part of since starting my blog almost two years ago. I got together with several amazing bloggers in the Utah/SLC Valley and helped model some of the new clothes from Wight Gold’s Valentine’s Day collection. But, beyond playing dress up and having our pictures taken, Camille (founder of Wight Gold) brought us all together to help create a message about the importance self-love to share with others.
Throughout the whole experience, I reflected on how crazy it all was. When did I become confident enough in myself to willingly model for a clothing boutique? When did I become brave enough to discuss my past on film, knowing that hundreds of strangers would see it? Who was this person who wasn’t worrying about her mishappen knee and how it would look in the pants she was wearing?
As I drove home from the shoot that evening, I realized that I had done some serious changing and growing and learning over the last couple of years and that blogging had a lot to do with it.
You see, my junior and senior years of high school was pretty awful. I was coming back from my treatment and I was realizing that a lot of my friends had moved on with their lives in a way I could never move on with mine. I was changed in so may ways after fighting cancer. I tried to talk about my experiences with my friends but quickly found out that they expected me to treat cancer like a stubbed toe: something that I shouldn’t ever need to talk about or mention again. I remember one day, walking up to one of my best guy friends in the band room and asking how he was. He turned around and walked away from me without saying a single word. I was so confused because we had just talked the day before, but he continued to give me the silent treatment through the rest of the day. When I asked one of our mutual friends why he wasn’t talking to me, she said something along the lines of “He just needs a break from all the attention you try to get from him when you talk about cancer.”