Earlier this summer, I had the awesome opportunity to partner with SevenPeaks Resort and enjoy a fun day at their Provo, Utah water park with several of my blogging friends. You may have caught all of our adventures on my Insta-stories (we took over the SevenPeaks Instagram for the day and had a blast!)
I’m going to be straight up honest with you all – I had a really hard time wanting to take photos in a bathing suit because I was worried about how I would look in them. I wanted to be skinnier, I wanted my scar to be a little less noticeable, I wanted my chest to be more proportionate to my body. I was worried about what I was going to look like next to my friends who were probably going to look a lot cuter in their swimsuits. Sure, I’ve made great progress in loving my body and embracing it for what it is, but I wasn’t sure if I was ready to commit to a swimsuit shoot at a waterpark.
The more I thought about it, the more I realized that this was a constant worry and anxiety in my life. How often have I limited myself and prevented myself from having vibrant life experiences because I’m too worried or self-conscious about how I look to others? How often have I said no, not because I didn’t want to do something, but because I was too scared of how I was going to look? I realized that the answer to those questions was: often. Way too often.
So, I decided to push my anxieties aside and let myself have a day at the park with some of my favorite blogging friends. And do you know what happened? I had SO much fun! We floated the lazy river, we tubed down slides and we rode waves in the wave pool. Yes, once in a while, I did worry about how I looked in a bathing suit, but it was fleeting because we were too busy dragging our tubes to the next slide.